The other day Jireh napped for close to 3 hours and I thought I was in heaven. For in those hours I was lying next to my husband in bed, aimlessly blog-bingeing, with nothing to rush or finish. I almost felt like I had no kids! (I love my Munchykins but I gotta admit, I really enjoy his nap times too!)
But just as soon as the thought of “heaven” appeared in my head, I was ashamed. Ashamed that something as small as this could count as heaven. And I was instantly reminded of this CS Lewis quote:
We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.
How much my appetite has diminished for heavenly things that I could be satisfied with baby naps and internet surfing! Not that these aren’t enjoyable, but something is surely amiss. My heart is not hungry for God and it definitely shows — in the everyday things.
This project must go on! It is a fight for life, abundant life, as Jesus promised and only Jesus can give.