With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse human beings, who have been made in God’s likeness. 10 Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters, this should not be. 11 Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? 12 My brothers and sisters, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.
When I was a new Christian in secondary school, this passage from James 3 troubled me a lot. I knew even then that I was guilty. In particular there was a girl whose friendships I was extremely envious of and I could hardly speak kindly to her or about her. My jealousy hid behind all the fake friendliness a 16-year-old could muster.
I knew I was behaving wrongly but I didn’t know how being a Christian should make me any different from everyone else. Isn’t it normal (and therefore acceptable) to complain about someone we don’t like? Yet I felt like a hypocrite anyway, a Christian on parade who is nothing like what the Bible says I should be.
There are days I still feel like a hypocrite (a much older one!) but thankfully my understanding of the gospel has grown. The grace of God truly gives a reason and hope for change, change that I want to pursue and write about in the course of this project!